It seems my application to transfer my poor confused love to another care home in the Valley is winding its way through the system. About 2 months ago I had asked to move us to The Views and added Glacier View just 2 weeks ago.
I have heard nothing official but it seems Glacier View is looking at his file.
What it means I don’t know. Can they decide they don’t want my sweet? or loud-mouth me? Do they have a bed or or they just preparing? I don’t know how the inner workings of this system go.
I know a decision is pending for us, to go or to stay. Leaving our dear many friends at the care home will be wrenching. For me, for sure and i think for them. But will it hurt him, or will he react to the change with glee as he did at the hospital?
I do not really want to leave where we have settled in, but it is not comfortable physically ( down to not enough furniture in the dementia ward again) or mentally.
I feel compelled to check who is on every shift, and who is off, because the care is uneven for dementia, even if technically competent. I go every day to see if he is still ok. I am afraid to leave town. Even when he is sleeping, i need to check. This is so unhealthy.
Can Island Health fix this broken system? Oh, Maybe. Can it fix it in time for my love and me to have a tiny bit more peace and grace in our last days together? Doubful. We probably don’t have that much time on earth unless something dramatic is done.
And so the decision looms, and uncomfortable change may have to be the choice.
And now I wait for the phone call. I think when it comes I will have 24 hours to choose and to act.
2 responses to “A change, a choice”
Bless your heart! Run with it and may there be peace and a little joy in the journey.
And how appalling that the choice has to be made in just 24 hours, even if it one you want. I just finished singing for a 50th wedding anniversary – all love poems by Rumi and Hafiz. Wish I could send them your way, Delores, and Don.
Love, Susan >